something paid in full...

one more... this is one of my favorites from 2002, written between thanksgiving and christmas. it was written about a guy i hadn't seen since early morning, january 1st, 2000. still haven't seen him. he was, without a doubt, my first love.

i want to see you because
                        i want to feel you because

because i think you owe me something.
         something you had once, first.

something i want, from you.

but first, come within range.  put yourself in the cross-hairs.
i want something from you.
                   once in tiny stolen capacities
                          once in full, paid back never...*

and you want something from me.    something you didnt have in a sh00ting star

something sand in your eye made clear.
                          something said once to constelations
                                      (through leaves)

i want something from you.

shh come near...
      only so much i can do where others can hear

i'll tie your shoelace for a dime
                fog your windows for a time

wash over me (like the surf?)::how long ago was that::



are you still ::still reading::

do you even know this is for you.